~Written by Stephen McClelland. For more free teachings, visit his website by clicking here. Be greatly blessed and encouraged!
A very famous and rich man was going to die with no heirs. He knew his end would come soon, but he still had some time. Wanting to entrust his fortune and his great work to someone who would do good things with it he set out to find several capable individuals that had the potential to successfully manage his great fortune. He found four.
He sent each of them invitations to come and learn from him. Plain white paper within plain white envelopes. “My time is short. Please come and learn from me. I will sustain you and your family during your studies. Upon my death it must be that someone will assume my responsibilities.”
The first man received the letter. He spat and mocked the rich man’s word’s. “He lord’s his wealth over others even in his death. What arrogance he displays by thinking my contributions are not good and just without his instructions. I will not go. If he is a good man let his great wealth be distributed equally to all men and let them decide what is good for themselves.”
This man was ignorant, a word which comes from Greek, meaning to be without proper knowledge. He made incorrect assumptions on the intentions of the offer and of the character of the man offering. The rich man had selected him because of his good works and had intended to increase his understanding and ability to enrich the lives of others in a way far more valuable than simply giving them money.
The second man received the letter with joy. He wrote back, “While I mourn your end, we all must die. Nevertheless I applaud your life and generosity toward myself and others. Regretfully, important matters require my attention and I will not be able to attend to your instruction. If you have found me capable I would still accept your fortune and with it do my best to fulfill your wishes.”
The rich man crossed out his name. This man was an idiot, from the Greek word which means to be unlearned or without instruction. He could not have fulfilled the desire and responsibilities without proximity. Without instruction, how could he understand the purpose, the justifications, the motives, the passion, the proven methods? How could he take the place of a man without knowing the man whose place he would be taking?
The third and fourth man accepted the invitation and moved their families to be with the rich man. They lived together, ate together, traveled together, etc. The rich man spent every remaining day of his life pouring into them everything he knew. He considered his greatest riches to be that which he had inside him. His character, his wisdom, and his desire to serve others. He died leaving these to the two men, as well as all his earthly possessions.
The third man proved to be inobservant. He rejected some of the rich man’s teachings, preferring his own character and wisdom to that which he had learned. He proved unfruitful in fulfilling his position despite having knowledge and instruction. He chose not to follow another and to follow himself.
The fourth man was ridiculed by many for being an imitator of the rich man. “You act just like him. You’re trying to talk just like he talked; do you even try to walk just like him too? If we asked you your name, would you use his instead of your own?” But the fourth man didn’t care. He felt honored to be chosen. He was happy to live the rest of his life in the manner requested. The rich man had given him so much and this was all that he had asked for in return. He considered it the most wonderful bargain.
Have you not known of the goodness of Jesus? Then you are truly ignorant.
Have you accepted His invitation but are still unaware of how He instructed His followers to live? Then by the purest definition, you’re an idiot. Someone who has not been taught.
Have you been learning about Him but haven’t really applied it to your life? Another way to call someone inobservant is to call them a fool. The wisdom of proverbs says that a wise man will hear instruction and do it and become wiser still, while a fool will reject instruction and go his own way.
Finally, the word imitate actually comes from the Greek word for disciple. Are you trying to imitate Jesus, to be his disciple? It is also true that you might be ridiculed for it. Even the term “Christian” itself shows this. It means “little Christ” and was originally used as a way of mocking disciples because they were behaving like Christ Himself behaved.
Jesus preached the kingdom, and repentance. Jesus cast out devils and healed the sick. Jesus was connected with His Father in heaven and empowered by the Holy Spirit on earth. Didn’t His disciples also have and do these things?
Brothers and sisters, stop being students of Christ only. With love let me say: you were called to be imitators also.
~Written by: Stephen McClelland. For free sermons and resources you can visit his ministerial website by clicking here <3 Be most blessed!
This morning I was reading in Romans where Paul compared Jesus to Adam. By one man’s transgression many were made sinners, and in the same way the obedience of one man, Jesus, many would be made righteous.
It reminded me of the things that the Lord had shown me comparing the ministries of Moses and Elijah to Jesus. Jesus had compared Himself to Jonah and Solomon, saying that one greater than them was here.
So I asked for more.
Lord if the Old Testament is filled with types and shadows, how does Jesus mirror and outperform Joseph?
Now in some ways it’s obvious, but I still asked.
He answered! In answering He connected a lot of things that I had never thought of or heard preached.
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Joseph was his father’s favorite son. His brothers resented and rejected him, even more-so because he spoke of them bowing to serve him. He had dreams of even his parents bowing down to serve him.
To get rid of him and to redistribute their father’s favor among them, his brethren sold him to foreigners. He was falsely accused and judgement was executed against him. After being put in prison, he was quickly put in charge of it. Nothing happened in the prison without his knowledge and oversight.
Eventually he was delivered from prison and seated next to Pharaoh. Pharaoh said that Joseph would be ruler over his house. Pharaoh would be greater only in the throne. Everyone was made to bow before Joseph.
He became the savior of Egypt, and then the savior of all the surrounding nations. Finally, when Jacob and his sons saw their own lack, Joseph became the savior of the very brethren that rejected him. He told them what they had meant for his harm, God in His greatness had worked for their good.
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Jesus was the Father’s favorite. His brethren resented and rejected Him. They hated Him even more because He was presented as the Messiah, the one whom they were to bow down and serve. Jesus responded to the critics asking them why David prophesied of the Messiah, calling him Lord, if the Messiah was to be one of David’s sons. That’s the direct equivalent of Joseph’s second dream.
In their jealousy they gave him over to foreigners. They begged the Romans to get rid of Him. He was found not guilty of any crimes but executed anyway. Then Jesus showed up in the underworld, the prison where the dead were awaiting final judgement. The moment He arrived He took over. He took the keys of death, hell, and the grave.
Three days later He came fully alive out of prison of the dead. He ascended to heaven where He was seated at the right hand of God the Father. The Father has given Jesus all authority in heaven and in earth. He rules the whole house. God the Father is greater in name only, as Jesus is God the Word, and has been from the beginning. Jesus being in the form of God considered it not robbery to be equal with God. At His name every knee will bow, those in heaven, those in earth, and those under the earth.
He has become the savior to the Romans that put Him in the prison of death. He has become the savior of all nations on earth. Scripture speaks of a time where all Israel will return and receive this great salvation. Caiaphas prophesied by the Holy Spirit that it would be expedient for one man to suffer so that whole nation wouldn’t perish. Caiaphas was one of the ones that resented Jesus and worked to have Him killed. What they had meant for evil, God in His greatness has worked for the good of all men forever.
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If you are lacking the substance of life you need to seek out this Jesus. He holds the keys to the storehouses of heaven.
Joseph distributed grain out of Egypt’s barns to the hungry. Jesus distributes Himself because He is the bread of life.
Joseph was given an Egyptian name: Zaphnath-Paaneah which means “Treasury of the glorious rest.”
Jesus said, “Come to me all who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest.” Jesus is the glorious rest. He opens up heaven’s treasury to all those that seek Him.
How can’t you help but fall in love with Someone who died and lives to give you everything?
In the deepening substance of intimacy with Him, I’m finding that “everything” is Him and the world is full of “nothing” when separated from Him.
He’s my hearts compelling.
The eternalized desire that wells in my soul.
This divine romance is more deep than my heartbeat.
His love is the source of eternal life.
I drift toward Him like plants follow the sun.
He is the substance that makes me truly alive.
His Presence is the warmth that causes my photosynthesis.
I find His love is all empowering.
The LORD appeared to us in the past: “I have loved you with an everlasting love; therefore I have drawn you with loving devotion. -Jeremiah 31:3 Berean Study Bible
This is how God showed his love among us: He sent his one and only Son into the world that we might live through him. – 1 John 4:9 NIV
Most people wouldn’t believe I wrote this sacred story while listening to Hero by Enrique Iglesias. So, what does Jesus have to do with that song? It’s simple…Jesus is the ultimate hero. There is no love that can save us like his.
This is a symbolic story that compares idolatry with spiritual adultery. “For your Creator will be your husband; the LORD of Heaven’s Armies is his name! He is your Redeemer, the Holy One of Israel, the God of all the earth.” -Isaiah 54:5
Jesus, you are the Lover of my soul, my husband forever <3
“I do” doesn’t burden my heart like it used to. Now my heart is lifted because I stand in white and look up with sparkling hazel eyes into the eyes of my one true love, my beloved Savior, into the warm eyes of Jesus, my hero.
I can picture myself standing and smiling, tears of gladness and peace flooding my eyes. I wipe them with a cloth He offers, rubbing off some of my wine-colored eye shadow over-laid with gold dust. My painted red lips make my teeth seem whiter than they are. Jesus gently takes my hand and tells me that I am beautiful. My white gown glitters like recently fallen snow in the sun, and fans out past my feet on the streets of gold.
We are in a garden of trees dripping with succulent golden, red, and orange colored cherries. My Husband pulls out the ring, golden with love, and engraved with a red ruby representing His shed blood for me. His fingers flutter beneath my hand until they case my ring finger.
“Do you love me?” He asks, His voice rich and deep like the oceans. I nod my head “I do,” I say. He smiles and slips the ring on my finger. He opens His arms and I melt inside of them. His embrace is sweeter than honey, and I feel like I am falling into His heart.
“Then love me every day,” He whispers in my ear. I shiver from His breath. His voice unlocks my heart. The key to my most sacred place has been delivered to Him by my hand. Choirs of Angels rejoice in the background between the trees, they are blurry to my vision. But all are beautiful, majestic and dressed in white robes with gauzy flowing sleeves.
Men love your wives as Christ loved the church and gave Himself up for her. -Ephesians 5:25
Years later, and I find myself coming home to my faithful Husband after having yet another affair. The night is cold and white with snow. The winter sky is a dark blue and ample with stars, but to my broken heart, outside is dark with pain. I knock on the front door and He opens it, and lets me inside.
I walk in, the fireplace is burning, and herbal tea is inside the kettle on the stove. There beside it is soup made with healing spices like ginger and red pepper. Jesus closes the door behind me. I notice an empty box of Kleenex tissues by the coffee table. Had He sat there and cried? How long had He waited for me to come home? My heart sinks. Without looking at me, without seeing my expression He knows.
“Did not my Spirit go with you?” He say’s looking at me with eyes that know my soul. And the two shall become one flesh. Don’t you know that your body is the temple of the Holy Spirit? -1 Corinthians 6:19
Shameful tears spring from my eyes. “I’m sorry,” I mummer with a trembling voice. Ever forgiving He takes my coat and draws me warm water for a bath, and waits for me to get dressed. Shyly I meet Him in the living room by the fireplace. There He fixes me a bowl of soup and tells me He’s glad I’m home. I am found in His arms, and He strokes my hair and restores my soul. Mending it with His care He prays to God above. Truly He has saved me in all ways, spiritual, mental, emotional, and physical.
“I will stand by you forever,” He says.
Amazed by His love I whisper, “Why?” I am so unworthy of it.
“Because I’m in love with you,” He says.
“As I am with you,” I respond.
“No,” He answers. Feeling insulted I move away from Him, offense settling inside of me.
“You love Me, but you are not in love with Me because you don’t know My heart.”
“I married You,” I say in defense.
“Yes, after I died for you. After I freed your soul, and brought salvation to your spirit. After I delivered you to God above, and rescued you from the enemy whom you play games with. Why? Why would you run back to someone who had you in chains? Who hates you and means only to destroy you and break your heart? I have done nothing to deserve that. Sweetheart I love you. I’ve promised to take care of you forever.”
I am dumbfounded by the truth. Though His words are firm, His tone is coated with love and care that left me feeling as if He were hugging me, as if He had just kissed my heart.
“Sweetheart, why would you visit a place that you ran from? There, you were dying in darkness. I sought you out and asked for your hand while you were consumed by bad habits, hot attitudes, temperaments, shortness of patience, a careless tongue, and lustful desires. So why, I ask, would you let him tempt you into your past again?”
I sit quietly rubbing my arm. A vision came to my heart. I pictured Jesus as a priceless treasure and I pictured myself walking away from Him to live in trash. Jesus scoots close to my side on the floor in front the fireplace. The sand colored carpet below me with sewn red roses seems softer now that He is by me. “It’s because you’re not in love with Me.” He breathes and touches my hand.
“When I took you as my wife, I gave you one request…to love me every day.” He gazes in my eyes. The love pouring from His fills me with that amazing peace I felt when I first asked Him to come into my heart and be my Lord and savior. He opens His arms and I melt in His embrace. “So, love me every day. Taste and see that I am good,” He whispers in my ears and I shiver again.
That night like every night that I am home He tucks me in bed and kisses me on the forehead. It was a holy kiss that seemed to heavenly remove my parading thoughts. After reading the Bible to me, He gets underneath the covers and blows out the dancing flames of the candles by our bedside.
I know past my soul, but deep in my spirit that I am home. He puts an arm around my waist and tells me goodnight. My heart is most comfortable by His touch, my mind is at ease with Him, and I am in harmony when I remain faithful to Him.
“Why?” I ask Him, confused as to why I would ever cheat on Him. “Why am I not in love with you?”
Jesus takes a deep breath in then out before sitting up. He turns on our bedside lamp, and it gives off a yellow glow. I sit up as well.
“Honey how much time do you spend with Me?” He asks. I lower my eyes.
“I know You frequently ask me to spend more time with You.”
“Some days,” He say’s slowly, “I don’t see you at all.” He lifts my hand to his lips and places a tender kiss on it. “On those days, I miss you. What could be more important than our marriage?”
I thought about it, and felt guilty to find that I placed things like television, video games and even foods over Jesus. I spent more time at work, school, and with my friends than I did with my Savior, whose uttered name rescued me from demons. Idolatry is not just bowing down to another God; it is placing anything and anyone over God. Not only had I cheated on Him, but I committed idolatry, I violated my body, my mind, and my heart and disgraced His body.
“Nothing is more important…I cannot explain my actions.”
He rubs my leg. “I can darling,” He says offering me the truth.
“Then, please explain,” I ask.
“You want the best in life my love, but you already have it. You want tangible love when you own the deepest there is. You seek things to make you happy when I offer you eternal joy, on earth and in Heaven. You don’t know yourself because you have not been made perfect in unconditional love. Your heart is like a body of water, some parts rage with waves, others stir, and yet others are lined with ripples. Every woman’s heart is made that way for a reason…so she can find Me at the center of her thoughts, of her heart, of her emotions, and so I can calm her waters, in a touch that goes far beyond the physical, but brings every part of her health. It’s the journey of falling in love that few have the patience to walk.” Jesus then puts His hand on mine.
“Your path is colored by the times of day and night. It is laid with stones, and mapped with valleys, mountains, forests, deserts, and rivers so that once you’ve found Me inside you will never be lost on the outside. Let your journey be a testimony to others. All these things are necessary just like soil, sunlight, and water is needed for a seed to grow, and flour, eggs, sugar, salt, and milk is needed to bake. What is honey without nectar, without the bee? What is land without water? What is the sky without the sun and the moon?”
“Without You I’m lost…there is no me without You.” I say looking at Him, the Holy Spirit revealing to me the truth. “I was bought with a price, Your life. I am no longer the devil’s, nor the world’s, nor my own…I am Yours. My heart, body, mind, and spirit belong to You…. so why don’t You take me?”
“My dear I am far too much of a gentleman to force you to love Me, and remain faithful. I will only ask you too, and take care of you when you come home if you choose to stray. My heart will never stop loving you, no matter what. Nothing you do could ever stop Me from loving you. I am Love and it delights My heart to love you.”
I fall into His embrace and He cuts off the lamp before snuggling me. Our room curtains are drawn back and the night sky is glittered with stars. It is true once you have a constant well of joy, peace, and love on the inside you can enjoy the simple beauties of life. Jesus is the water that springs this well on the inside of me. Peace has flooded me. I lay my head on His chest and listen to the musical sound of His heartbeat. Like base drums, calming, steady, and deep His heart gives me all I could ever want and need.
“I will,” I whisper, “Love You every day.”
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“The stories in this book will invite you into a marriage relationship with Jesus showing you what it looks like to be loved without condemnation. Ashley brings you into personal conversations with the one who’s very name is Love. Sometimes life just gets so busy and I grow distant from the Lord that I don’t hear His gentle voice wooing me, calling me to His side. As I read this book, Jesus was reminding me of His great love for me, reminding me that He actually longed to spend time with me. If you are longing to know what it means to be loved and romanced by your creator, read this book and allow Jesus to romance you like only He can!” – Rachel Sklenicka, Licensed Minister, Graduate of CBC, Former Missionary to Russia
Dedicated to God my
King & Father forever, and to Christine Lenia, who’s been an encouraging
and comforting light in my heart.
I understand why some people are so afraid of true
love.
For true love is sacrifice, it is death to self,
complete vulnerability and eternal commitment of the spirit, body and soul.
The physical equivalent would be to take out one’s
heart.
It would be to open one’s shirt, revealing one’s chest,
and take out your glowing, pumping, delicate life source, and offering it to a
deeply beloved.
It would be to step back, not move and only watch what
your loved one does with your fragile heart.
Whether they accept it by engulfing your heart in their
arms, allowing your soul to seep into their skin forever, or throw it to the
ground and trample on it—the equivalent of fiercely stabbing you in the chest
with a double-edged sword—it is up to them.
Or worse yet, they cannot respond, not even allowing
you the rest of death.
They can simply walk away, suffocating your heart,
leaving it ice cold gasping for air and the warmth of running blood.
If this happen dear one give your heart to God.
Let His heart become one with yours.
In the healing, blazing yet gauzy light of His Spirit
your ears will fill with the holy deep drumming sound of His heartbeat.
The river waters of His soul will be sweet to your
tongue and softer than lavender oil on your skin.
You will forever live in the fragrant hands of a God
whose eyes are warmer than cinnamon.
It’s amazing when you know Someone loves you so much that even death can’t do you part….
…only Jesus
I’ve been realizing and experiencing the reality that I will never be alone another second of my life. This truth has been like a blanket of incense around my heart and wells of living peace bubbling up from the depths of me. xoxo
This Man is becoming the singular desire of my eyes, the One my heart flies freely into. This intimacy is intertwined so intricately and completely that I can’t separate my identity from Him. Where does He start? Where do I end? I look up and I see that I am swallowed by His affectionate heartbeat. I am beginning to taste Heaven even while I’m on earth. Heaven is Him, the Father and the Holy Spirit.
For you died to this life, and your real life is hidden with Christ in God – Colossians 3:3
“I and the Father are one.” -Jesus in John 10:30
The only true and saving source of love is found on calvary…where Jesus died to His life so we can be reborn and have His life in us. Such love that the Father GAVE the closest thing to His heart! For you and me! He never withholds His affection, He never withholds His goodness! He never withdraws His grace.
I pray He leads you relationally to that sweet place of abiding. May you see and recognize His faithful presence with you always. His love surrounds you. He paid everything He could, so you could be with Him forever. Such love!
~If you enjoyed this devotional, you might want to check out my book Visions of Celestial Love. It’s filled with poems, devotionals and short stories meant to draw your heart closer to Jesus. <3
~I am coauthoring a new book with my husband Stephen McClelland. It is a wonderful story of living with Jesus in the midst of adverse circumstances. The setting is early America, when slavery was still lawful. This is a rough draft sneak peak. Enjoy! <3
John’s picturesque wife Nancy, stood still and then trembled as she fought back tears. The light from the lanterns glowed softly on her silky, long, summer-blonde hair. She lifted her small pale hands off her son Luke’s shoulders and took a careful step back. She then clutched her sculpted hands into the fabric of her white gossamer night-gown. Pools of the elegant fabric hung loosely on her arms and fell down in ripples over her slender body. It collected like heavy mist across the floor. She could feel her fingernails digging painfully through the stylish fabric as she circled them down to pinch her flesh. It took all she had to restrain herself from throwing her body down over her father-in-law’s corpse. She wanted to pour out her passionate sorrow and disregard how undignified her cry might be. But she feared any display of her sorrow might frighten her and John’s son. I must be strong for Luke. I must!
The
more she looked at Solomon’s corpse, the more the anguish within her pierced
her heart. She sniffled back a trail
of snot that was threatening to trail down her nostrils. Lifting the back of
her right hand, she pressed it to her pointed nose. Burning salty tears
gathered behind her bright blue eyes. She gritted her teeth and crinkled her
nose in an attempt to damn the emotional torrent within. Rebellious large tears
soaked her long eyelashes and fell down her cheeks in streams. Her cheeks hued into
a soft rose as her face became aflame with tension.
Within
moments liquid began to drain freely from her eyes and nose. She kept rubbing
at both, soaking her sleeves. Her spirally curls stuck to the salty fluid on
her cheeks.
Luke could hear his mother weeping quietly behind him. He intuitively knew that she didn’t want him to see her, so he gazed ahead. His eyes were abnormally transfixed on his grandfather. He scanned the emaciated form and wondered why his grandfather had stopped breathing. He focused on his chest but didn’t see it softly rise and fall. No sound came from him. Luke had a terrible sick feeling down in his gut. He felt like his stomach was churning, like it had often done when he was a baby before he threw up.
Why isn’t grandpa moving? Why is
mommy crying?!
A few minutes passed and he could feel his mother’s legs on his back. She bent down behind him and hugged a delicate arm around his chest. He could feel the wet tears on her cheeks as she pressed her hot face against his ear. She kissed him tenderly on his temple and whispered brokenly, “I’m so sorry sweetie. But grandpa won’t wake up this time.”
Why won’t he mommy? Luke wanted to ask, but only gulped
painfully instead.
~This sneak peek excerpt follows the romance of Trisha and Noble. To read more of their romance story, click here. <3
Trisha’s face swelled with heat as her heart pounded against
her chest. She couldn’t shake the fear—she couldn’t brush off the nagging thoughts.
The air around her was heady with the sweet scents of rich
wine. Lush grapes dangled like gemstones against the green foliage.
She hugged her arms and her fingertips brushed against her
wooly white knitted sweater. It was a sweet gift from Sarah.
Trisha’s eyes brimmed from the sentiment this pearly sweater
had…Sarah’s honeymoon.
She thought about Sarah’s retelling of her and Kris’
romance. She imagined the happy 30 years of growth and godliness.
She thought about Noble.
Her heart ached so bad for him she gritted her teeth.
In desperation she prayed, Father, why can’t I shake him off?
She sniffled and wiped at her nose.
It was almost like God was fighting her.
Why did you want me to
come here with him? Didn’t you know I would…suffer inwardly like this?
A soft voice spoke in her heart, what if I don’t want you to resist him?
Trisha shook her head.
Noble’s eyes flashed before her eyes. The way he looked at her last night.
His eyes glowed like bioluminescent water in the arctic. They were streaked with a passion brighter than the northern lights. He was more vibrant than the sun on water to her.
She felt his perusal like the clothes on her body.
His soul seemed to walk across the room and melt into her
skin causing her cells to sing.
She was washed in wave after wave of the poetry of his heart.
I love you, I love you, I love you was
the undercurrent message of his presence.
She thought he would overpower her with his gaze.
What are you afraid of
beloved?
Trisha fell on her knees and hugged herself. She gaped with
effort to shut off her feelings.
“No, no, no.”
What are you afraid
of?
“He hasn’t proposed has he?” she asked Jesus, “if he truly
loved me the way…the way all of his actions seem to say, then he would have
asked.”
She started crying, “Lord please? I’m dying with love of
him! I ca-….I can’t invest my heart in someone so deeply if he isn’t committed
to me? You tell me to guard my heart in your Word.”
Beloved, guard your
heart from fear, not from courage.
Trisha shut her eyes and tears trailed down her cheeks. She
felt them collect at the bottom of her round chin before splashing on her arm.
I love you.
“I know you do Jesus,” she said feeling Him comfort her.
I gave myself fully
away to you without your love in return. And I would do it again. What joy I
have in loving you.
Trisha recognized His meaning, “but Jesus you knew I would
respond one day.”
What about those who
never respond? Don’t I love them too? I died for my enemies.
“But you told me to guard my heart! You told me not to
awaken love until its time. I read that verse many times in Song of Songs.”
Peace beloved. I see you are at the time of love.He will propose to you soon.
A small gasp escaped Trisha’s lips, “But I’m not ready…”
What are you afraid
of?
The sound of someone walking distracted Trisha.
She wiped her tears away and looked around.
Sarah was in the fields coming toward her slowly.
Her lovely visage was colored with quiet care and concern…
~To be continued….
And when I passed by again, I saw that you were old enough for love. So I wrapped my cloak around you to cover your nakedness and declared my marriage vows. I made a covenant with you, says the Sovereign Lord, and you became mine ~ Ezekiel 16:8 NLT <3
“Through vivid descriptions and thought provoking stories, Ashley invites us to experience deeper intimacy with our eternal Bridegroom. Romantic Rendezvous for the Soul inspires us to throw off the complacency of busy lifestyles and passionately seek the heart of Jesus. This book is a beautiful reminder of the ever-present love, steadfastness and mercy He offers to each of us throughout our covenant relartionship.” -Keely Metcalf
~I am coauthoring a new book with my husband Stephen McClelland. It is a wonderful story of living with Jesus in the midst of adverse circumstances. The setting is early America, when slavery was still lawful. This is a rough draft sneak peak. Enjoy! <3
Thomas stood stiffly at Pappy’s unmarked grave; his solid body, a mass of concrete. Jade grass was breaking through the frozen earth as the gentle spring sun began to slowly wane the harsh effects of winter. Branches drenched in Spanish moss swayed in the chilly breeze like torn sage curtains— dew dripped down them like crystal tears.
Thomas
thumbed Pappy’s old beaten up Bible with his large calloused hands and then
stroked a hand down his coarse beard. His warm brown eyes misted as he thought
fondly of Pappy’s Bible studies with him and the other young slaves. No matter
how exhausted he was, Pappy would faithfully sit with them every weekend and
teach them the Word of God.
Thomas
inhaled deeply as he remembered the night he finally surrendered his life to
Christ. How sweet was the love of God that enveloped him. His insides felt like
warmed ginger. His heart, for the first time, had felt peace. The pains of the
past melted away like butter over a hot stove. He had finally understood the
light in Pappy’s eyes.
Although
his encounter with Christ had saved him…life was still hard at times.
Especially now, since Pappy had been dead for over a year.
“I know
that, that I’ll see you’n again…b-but,” his voice cracked with pain, “but it
feels so different with you gone.” Thomas sniffled and pretended his dear older
brother in Christ were still with him. He put the back of his hand to his nose
to wipe the drops of snot away.
He
imagined Pappy’s fatherly arm were wrapped across his massive shoulders.
“Old
mas’er is sick and weak now. He ain’t been getting out of bed much. The doctors
cum round frequently but he only get worse. I haven’t seen mas’er but a few
times in the last couple months. I think he gone go yonder soon?”
Thomas
closed his eyes shut as he prepared to voice a heartbreaking matter. His free
hand baled into a fist until his fingernails dug into his skin.
“Ivy gone
have a baby. The baby’s name is Libya. She fairer than her mama. I think Ivy
was raped like her mama. Anyway, Libya only 5 years old and she sick. She ain’t
talking…she ain’t moving. She just still. Ivy give her water here and again…but
Libya refuse to eat. Tonight we gone go pray for Libya and ask God to heal
her.” Thomas’ breath shuttered and he began to weep.
Several
minutes passed before he collected himself. The peace of Christ swelled within
him from the Holy Spirit. The love of God soothed him and he felt his heavenly
Father say Libya was cared for.
Thomas
smiled and thanked God that he could know Him so intimately. He grinned at
Pappy’s grave. I understand how you were
able to walk like Jesus now. No matter what, you always acted like Jesus even
to your enemies.
Thomas
continued talking as if Pappy could hear him and voiced news of some other
things going around at the plantation.
“I know
it’s minor compar’d to what I was talking about before. But it sure does my
heart good to say it to you anyway.”
After he was finished, Thomas dipped his chin in respect and said goodbye before heading back home.
The
evening sun filtered through the dusty paneled windows in Solomon Blake’s room,
creating a foggy light effect. He coughed harshly and let out a pained groan.
The veins in his wrinkled hands surfaced unnaturally and he trembled despite
the massive blankets that rested on his gaunt body/form. There was whispering
going on in the room and Solomon shut his eyes to rest. He only intended to
pretend to fall asleep, but he quickly entered into a state of unconsciousness.
By the time he awoke again it was night.
“Huh?” he
slurred and felt a trail of drool running slowly down his lips unto his chin.
Spots of blood was on his white sheet.
“What’s
this?” he demanded and peered around—his vision hazy.
Brass oil
lamps glowed with melting white candles fixated on top of them. The faint aroma
of sickly sweet mint coated the air.
A grown
John with pitying eyes answered, “your nose began to bleed in your sleep
father. We wiped it up as fast as we could.”
Solomon’s
vision cleared momentarily and he saw the shimmer of tears behind his son’s
hazel eyes. His chiseled face was strong, tanned and handsome. His mutton chop
beard illuminated the forte of his jaw and framed his face favorably. Solomon glanced
at the way the flickering candles lit up the edges of John’s golden blonde
hair…making it glow like embers.
Solomon
fussed, “well, why couldn’t you take the bloody sheets away boy?”
John
sighed and forced a smile. The illness had made Solomon temperamental over the
last couple of months. “We would have woken you by moving the sheets. But I can
get Biltha to bring in new sheets?”
“I’d
prefer that over sleeping with my own blood on top of me!”
“Yes sir,”
John responded before looking over his shoulder at Silas.
Silas stood
stiffly next to a ruby red ruffle couch. His forehead was beaded with sweat.
Anxiety and weariness had caused his head to throb and he pressed some fingers
to his temples before slowly circling his fingertips to the pressure.
He needed
his pipe and felt like he could pull out each red hair in his bandholz beard at
this moment. He was going stir crazy in the room. The hair on his head was
unkempt. Red curls shot in each direction but down and made him look like a
cave man despite his black tail coat, white collared shirt and coal dark pants.
Even in his mid-thirties he still struggled with boyish fears and John picked
up on his stress like a hound chasing runaway slaves.
“Hey!” John snapped and Silas awakened
from his thoughts.
“Yes sir?”
John’s
visage was fixed in a frown and he chastened Silas in his tone, “go get Biltha
to bring father clean sheets!”
Silas’s
emerald eyes flickered when he realized he had been tuning John out. Heat rose
to his cheeks.
He nodded
briefly and hastened out the room so quickly he almost jolted into the doctor.
“Fresh air
at last,” he whispered to himself once he was outside the door. He exhaled in
relief before searching for the household slave.
He found
her inside Mrs. Blake’s quarters and whistled sharply.
Old Biltha
jumped and when she saw Silas, she immediately bowed her head. Despite her many
years she was strong and just as fat as she had been in her younger years. Her
coarse hair was wrapped up with a ragged blue cloth.
“Go fetch
a clean white sheet for master Blake. He’s in his room. Wash the bloodied one.”
“Yesum
m’ser Silas,” she said respectfully before scurrying away like a mouse escaping
a hungered cat.
She never
liked him much. Not since that faithful day he’d gotten Pappy unjustly beaten
for a crime he committed.
Some people never forget.
Luckily
his tenor was always easy with Biltha. She’d nursed John and Silas knew her
since he was an infant. She had the friendlies face and a comforting demeanor.
Silas
hesitated at Solomon’s door. He hated seeing his uncle sick. He hated watching
him suffer without being able to take the horrible pain away. What was this
illness that captured his uncle?
He prayed
for help before pushing the door open.
When he
entered he saw the doctor at Solomon’s side, putting a wet, oiled towel across
his forehead.
His uncle
looked emaciated…like a skeleton with pale crumpled flesh on.
His once
straw thick hair was now white, damp and sickly. He was withering away before
all their eyes and Mrs. Blake kept up in her sewing quarters crying day and
night with grief.
Solomon
cussed when he was told to drink some tonic.
“I hate
that damn stuff!” he fussed and glared at the deeply purple liquid with
disdain.
“It’s for
your respiratory system Mr. Blake,” the doctor said calmly.
Solomon
sucked in a shagged breath. Mucus was clogged in his throat.
“Hot
tea’ll clear that,” he protested.
“Not this
time sir,” the doctor stated as nicely as possibly.
“Gin
then,” Solomon risked.
The doctor
shook his head slowly. His specks fit like tiny hour glasses on his chubby face
and drooping cheeks. He had the rosy complexion of a bleached strawberry and
the physique of an obese squirrel.
Solomon
thought his features deplorable, but he had learned the doctor was
compassionate and knowledgeable.
With a
relenting frown Solomon took the tonic with a shaky hand and drew the tube to
his lips.
He
squeezed his eyes shut and swallowed hard and quick.
He gagged
as his taste buds revolted at the bitter liquid.
He handed
the empty tube to the doctor and stuck his tongue out in disgust.
He flicked
his fingers beckoning and John put a piece of chocolate in his hand.
Solomon
quickly popped the hard-sweet candy in his mouth and slurred it around in
delight.
“Ahhh,” he
sighed, “a piece of heaven after hell.”
The doctor
chortled, slightly amused before he stood, “I’ll be back to see you shortly Mr.
Blake. Please kindly remember all of my instructions.”
Solomon
nodded.
With humor
and an arched eyebrow, the doctor ordered, “and don’t give your son or nephew
any trouble when it comes to taking your medicine.”
Solomon
grunted in response and folded his arms before looking away.
The doctor
shook his head and put a hand on John’s shoulder before guiding him where Silas
was standing.
John’s
hazel eyes were still shimmering, but this time with slight hope his father
might recover.
The doctor
saw it and hated that he would disappoint him.
“He
livened up there for a moment,” John said and played at the fabric in his
pockets nervously.
Silas
backed against the wall and envied a piece of chocolate. Maybe something sweet
would distract him from his anxiousness?
The doctor
dipped his chin before holding his head up again, “I’m very sorry John, but I
don’t think there’s much more I can do for your old man besides ease his pain
with the tonic until…he passes.”
John
studied the doctor’s blue eyes and read a finality the doctor dared not speak.
I suspect your father will pass
soon.
A small
gasp escaped John’s lips and his heart pounded in his chest like thunder.
He felt
winded for a moment and managed to calm himself quickly for appearances sake.
“Thank you
for your help doctor.”
They
nodded at each other before the doctor and Silas left the room.
John stood
in the corner motionless for a few minutes until the sound of heavy snoring
caught his ears.
He turned
and saw his father covered in blankets like a shroud. His bed was like a
tombstone and the way his wrinkled hands lay atop each other reminded John of a
corpse.
A sick
feeling leapt inside his stomach and John hesitantly made his way to his
father’s bedside.
His eyes
fell upon the pale form of his dad. His feet seemed frozen in place as if he
could not move.
He had stood in that exact same spot, staring, brooding off and on for months.
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I
woke up with the sun, although physically tired, my heart was wildly awake. My
dear husband snored lightly beside me, his pale back slightly exposed. My 1-year-old
with tan caramel skin was sleeping peacefully. Her lips pursed close to her
fingers. She was wearing a lovely sky blue and white dress. Her dark brown hair
dangled over her closed eyes in fanciful spirals.
I
tip-toed across the room and decided to grace my soon-to-arrive, family members
in the lovely turquoise and ocean-blue patterned sun-dress my sister had given
me.
After a fairly
quick hot shower, I perfumed my body with aromatic pink himalayan salt lotion
touched with the taste of heady essential oils.
After
slipping into the dress and doing a few soft twirls, I decided it was perfect.
I gazed at my reflection in the mirror and examined my washed face. Auburn
braids fell across my shoulders and tipped below my chest. I wondered if I should
put make-up on but decided it against—lest they think I was too dressed up.
Moments
later I picked up my daughter and gave her warm milk…with each passing minute
my heartbeat quickened in anticipation.
Suddenly
I heard the code to the front door being pressed. I gathered Eden in my arms
and ran toward the door—opening it hurriedly.
Three
of the most loved people in my life all smiled brightly. The sun shining and warming
their backs, illuminating their snow-white teeth and enriching their dark brown
skin.
“Eden!”
They all chimed together and started reaching for her.
With fake reprimand,
I jerked my body away, “Oh, I see! I
don’t matter anymore since becoming a mother?”
I
hastened away toward the second living room with the electric fireplace set and
widescreen television.
“Come give
me my niece!” Azania cried and chased after me.
I
giggled and put Eden down on the teal blue carpet. Suddenly three large adults
surrounded her—two of whom she wasn’t that
familiar with. She clung close to my side for a few seconds but then was
quickly passed on from person to person.
Loud
voices dotted on her, caring hands patted and rubbed on her.
She stared
widely briefly and then started embracing all of the attention.
I
grabbed my flame-colored worship flag with a ruby red handle and handed it to
Eden. She gladly took it and started lifting it up and dancing with it. She
reached for the television, expecting me to turn on the kids worship music
video. When I didn’t she flayed her arms in fleeting protest and then started
dancing around anyway.
My
mother and sisters had just started asking me to make them breakfast when Stephen
came down the stairway.
“Hey, what
do ya’ll want for breakfast?” Stephen asked enthusiastically, “I can make
pancakes and eggs for everyone.”
My heart
sighed in grateful relief!
My
family all thanked him with raised voices—as if each of them were trying to be
heard over the other. While he cooked I woke up my cousin who was fast asleep
in the lighting blue rental car. I giggled when she was startled to see my
face. She had been deeply asleep for the whole drive. She gathered her things
and headed inside to stretch out on the sandy colored couch. I helped my
sisters unload their luggage.
After the large tasty breakfast, many of my family members drifted to sleep…each in different rooms in my parent’s large two-story house.
Two days have gone and it’s my 28th birthday today. Each day with my family has been like collected a bag of treasures that will go into eternity. Each memory has stained my heart like a pleasing water-color glass mosaic. Precious tears have been shed from sensitive hearts, prayers have gone up like bowls of incense, laughter has erupted like trumpet blasts—loud, clear, ear-covering laughter.
The house has smelled like ginger and cayenne pepper caked fish for 36 hours, coating my clothes and the furniture with the memory of our celebrating the gift of life together. Bahamian rice with peas and coconut milk has been scarfed down and disappeared almost as quickly as it came. We have danced together, we have jested with each other, we have bowled careless words, we have kissed each other’s cheeks, we have laid on one another’s shoulders…we have lived.
Our last night together we participated in a life-coaching questionnaire together…. many deep things of the heart rose to the surface. We discussed our different places in life for almost 3 hours of intimate connection…sometimes with fear, sometimes with hiddenness, sometimes with gleeful enthusiasm and surrendered vulnerability. We ended in prayer and then worshipped until 11 pm in the night with colorful banners and lifted hands.
This morning the coffee pot has been brewed. I have looked fondly as eyes with bags underneath them have grabbed at the hazelnut creamer (it was a long, beautiful night that hued those eyes). Ruby red candles have been lit scenting the house like warm welcoming arms. Women are baking in the kitchen and sweet Johnny bread is rising in the oven. More words are being spoken as the dust of tiredness from two long days are being blown away by the readiness of living today…of loving today.
I
am surrounded by noise, by life humming around me, by the greatest blessing
Father has given me outside of a pure relationship with Himself…family.
I treasure these last few hours before they pack up and leave to return to their families (their husbands and children). I savor their presence like fluid oil on my skin, I relish the scent of them like lingering my nose at the touch of a soft petal. I weep in my heart knowing we will part physically soon.
My afternoon was spent in sweaty freedom, queenly extravagance, and rich generosity. After a Pilates workout, my sisters and I went to a neighboring reservoir at my suggestion. The hills were like browned hay, the wind was harsh, the bluish waters whipped about in waves. It was less than ideal, and I was grateful for their uncomplaining willingness to climb onboard with my impulsive idea of “fun.” We jogged down a hill, ran into each other, stopped for pictures, and became competitive. My sister Ashanti walked up to a hill with a narrow dirt path. Once at the top she turned her I-Phone on record. Azania and I stood at the bottom giving each other playful side glances.
“All right,
on your marts, get set…. go!”
My
throat burst forth giggles as we started off at a jog. When we reached the
fork, I speed up and cut off my sister so she had to slow down to avoid the
shrubs. The wind tossed my hair about my neck and shoulders. Azania laughed
heartedly but didn’t push back. When we reached the top, I boasted in my smug success.
We
met our father sitting in the rental car. He was content to keep out of the
wind.
After
our hike was over Azania treated my mother and me to extravagant pedicures. Our
feet were soaked in hot salted mineral water that smelled sweet. Our backs were
leaned against plush chairs that massaged everything from our necks down.
My
leg was rubbed with oil and then kneaded by strong and gentle hands. A smiling
middle-aged lady with silver strands streaking her jet-black hair put a
steaming hot towel around my legs. She then began to work on my feet. Afterward,
my legs were treated with hot rocks, and finally, my toes were painted before
being slipped into neon orange sandals. I was then guided to a polished
hazelnut wooden table decorated with a growing tree. Colorful ribbons were tied
on the branches of the tree.
I
took up a conversation with a lady who had just had her fingernails done. She
too had been guided to the table. We sat across from each other and I admired
her round bronze earrings with midnight blue moons at the center. Before long
my sister caught my attention. She placed a pink strawberry iced drink from
Starbuck’s on my lap. I was taken aback from her kindness…knowing my spa-like
time at the salon was probably over $60.
After
mom, Azania and I were in the car we drove to the store. My husband’s debit
card was in my pocket. He wanted to buy my cake and ice cream. Azania and I
slipped out of the car and she crossed her arm in my mine and held me close,
“here’s some money for clothes,” she said.
I
was once again surprised and almost wanted to protest but knowing that would
sadden her, I didn’t.
We
only spent a few moments in the clothes store. Undecided on what I wanted, I
told her I would come back again. After I had picked out my choice cake and I went
down the ice-cream isle and choose the fat-free frozen vanilla yogurt.
Moments
later, I walked into my parent’s comfy crowded house and relished the people
inside. More noise resounded once my mother entered and I chuckled inside. Food
was being cooked again and my sister Azania told me to meet her upstairs in my
room. I wondered what was going on.
Once
inside my room, I waited for her. In about a minute she appeared and started
singing happy birthday softly. She handed me a black velvet bag tied with a
glittery fall colored rope. Pacific Pearl was marked in cursive. She also held
out an equally fancy jewelry box with a perfect bow at the center and a tan
card.
I
reached for the bag first but she told me to open the card.
I
complied and took out two glossy hard paper cards picturing glamorous women on
the covers. One of the women had piercing pretty eyes and clutched shimmering
pearls to her refined cheeks. Her plush lips were pursed open.
I
turned the cards around and squinted to make out the small handwriting.
“They
are instructions on how to take care of your jewelry.”
My
eyes widened in realization, “you got me real pearls?!”
Azania
nodded slowly with a smile.
“No
way!”
I
put down the cards and opened up the bag. A stunning rose-hued pearl, the size
of a succulent grape, was circled by sterling silver and hung from a sparkling
chain.
My
eyes were transfixed and I fingered my gift with gratitude and pleasure, “thank
you,” was all I remembered saying.
Azania
tied the pearl and silver around my neck and I examined myself in the mirror,
feeling like a wealthy lady, “I will need to buy a dark formal dress to wear
this with,” I stated, with every intention of purchasing one.
Azania
nodded and we remembered the royal blue, lacy long dress I had considered
purchasing at the clothes store.
“Too
bad I didn’t get it,” I verbalized in regret.
“You
can always go back,” Azania offered and I agreed.
After my enamor with my new necklace had quieted enough, I remembered the box beside the bag. I went toward it and guessed what it was before I opened it.
“Earrings?”
Azania nodded, “yes.”
Two matching earrings glowed like
the dust of the first snow against dark velvet. On each earring hung three
dangling pearls, beautiful like ornaments coated with dew.
“These are
so beautiful!” I gaped and afterward squeezed my sister tightly.
The rest of my birthday was spent in
the usual tumultuous fashion: noise, loud laughter, voices overlapping one
another, conversations bubbling like a never-ending brook, more food being
cooked and, as always, the cooing of adults over Eden.
As the sun began to set, my heart
began to sadden. I lingered around my family like the shirts that framed their
torsos. My most-beloved friend Alice
handed me the birthday card she had purchased for me, tucked inside of it was
gift money. We hugged closely and briefly before she left to drive back to the
coast before sunset.
Three hours or so passed before my
sisters and cousin were in the rental car, their luggage secured in the trunk. I
started to weep inside but the Holy Spirit comforted me and I remembered how
blessed I was to have spent a wonderful weekend with them.
After some prayer, more hugs, and
mushy sentiments, the engine rumbled and the headlights turned on. I hugged my
arms in the cold night air and blinked back some gathering tears.
“I love you!” I called as the car
reversed out of the driveway. Azania and Ashanti waved. My mother who had been
standing on the balcony, waiting for them to leave so she could watch her show,
retreated inside.
My father and I slowly made our way inside. Stephen was setting up the high-chair my cousin had bought for Eden. He had also opened up the fancy gate my sister Ashanti had bought for my preschool. I thanked my husband and sat beside him, silently praising God in my heart for my family.
Beloved, let us love one another, for love is from God, and whoever loves has been born of God and knows God. Anyone who does not love does not know God, because God is love. In this the love of God was made manifest among us, that God sent his only Son into the world, so that we might live through him. In this is love, not that we have loved God but that he loved us and sent his Son to be the propitiation for our sins. Beloved, if God so loved us, we also ought to love one another. No one has ever seen God; if we love one another, God abides in us and his love is perfected in us. -1 John 4:7-12
Throughout my life, I’ve always had the faithful security of love from my family. When I wasn’t saved, I didn’t value my family as I do now. When I drifted away from God’s fatherly heart and became religious, I overlooked menial things like playing board games together with my family. I thought “secular” activities like running down reservoirs with my sisters wasn’t as valuable as feeding the homeless or attending church service. But now I’m beginning to see that family is one of the greatest blessings God gives to us on this side of eternity.
God is pleased when I love my family well and when I receive their love. He dwells with pleasure in the midst of things like long conversations over coffee and frying fish to feed eight mouths who feast like they were the 5,000. He delights in the way we touch each other, in the way my sisters coo over Eden, and even in the way I playfully teased Azania after cheating. God loves to abide with us. He abode with the disciples when Jesus cooked them a fishy breakfast with baked bread on the beach after his ascent from the grave.
He’s there with you in every breath you take, in every sigh you make, in every friend you have lunch with. He’s there for every cup of coffee you pour. He’s there in every shoulder you rub. He’s there with compassion in every tearful hug, at every graduation celebration, in every diaper change. He dwells in it all and everything becomes holy ground when there is genuine love. The miracle of His love is that we get to do life with Him, we get to share His compassionate heart, we get to hear Him in the voices of our loved ones. May all your “secular” activities be sprinkled with holy awareness that God’s love is waiting to pour upon you and through you to your family.