Growing Through and in Rest

~Taken from my book Visions of Celestial Love

For we who have believed (adhered to and trusted in and relied on God) do enter that rest in accordance with His declaration that those [who did not believe] should not enter when He said, As I swore in My wrath, They shall not enter My rest; and this He said although [His] works had been completed and prepared [and waiting for all who would believe] from the foundation of the world. —Hebrews 4:3 AMPC

Pause, and think calmly about those words.

Something about this scripture jumped out at me, and I have not myself to thank, nor my own intelligence, but the Holy Spirit. He’s the Life in the Word. The One who makes it living and active. Without Him, reading God’s Word is like reading another book—and there is hardly anything sadder than that. Do you see the word “works” in here?

Whose work, is it? It’s God’s.

Our only job, the one that we’ve always had, even in the old covenant, is to believe.

The same is true today, underneath the righteousness, blood, grace, and work of Christ.

Believing secures our rest. The rest God ordained for us to have before the foundations of the world. The rest of relationship.

Let’s continue reading about rest in Hebrews:

Again He sets a definite day, [a new] Today, [and gives another opportunity of securing that rest] saying through David after so long a time in the words already quoted, Today if you would hear His voice and when you hear it, do not harden your hearts. [This mention of a rest was not a reference to their entering into Canaan.] For if Joshua had given them rest, He [God] would not speak afterward about another day.

—Hebrews 4:7–8 AMPC

Think again for a moment. Before you read on, ask the Holy Spirit to help you grasp what this means.

I believe that entering God’s rest was more important than receiving the promised land. I believe it was more important than the Israelites entering into Canaan or even crossing over the Jordan to obtain the promise of land.

God was more interested in His people having relationship with Him. God’s always been more about the internal soul and the spiritual than He is about physical possessions.

Once again, ask the Holy Spirit to reveal to you the meaning of these scriptures; He might give you more information, more insight than He’s given me here.

Perhaps the purpose of them entering the land was for them to enter into rest. The only way to that was belief. Trusting faith. A heart that knows God, knows He’s good, and knows His nature. A heart that knows His thoughts toward us, and more specifically you.

He’s a giver. Always has been, always will be. His nature does not change. He’s the same yesterday, today, and forevermore.

So then, there is still awaiting a full and complete Sabbath-rest reserved for the [true] people of God; For he who has once entered [God’s] rest also has eased from [the weariness and pain] of human labors, just as God rested from those labors peculiarly His own.

—Hebrews 4:9–10 AMPC

There is such beautiful promise in here.

Aren’t you tired of working? Of striving?

There is a sanctified striving that should exist in every believer of Jesus Christ, but it is often perverted.

We’re not striving to be accepted by God, or acceptable to Him. Our works, our striving will never get us that. Our striving should be out of rest, in a place of absolute peace. Done from joy, and with joy. Done out of love, in love, and through love. This cannot be done without belief. Our works shouldn’t even really feel like work.

Wanting to know our Jesus, wanting to be like Him, should be a part of our nature, as getting food or water to drink is when we’re hungry or thirsty. It should be a daily activity. It should be a mental domain, an internal setting.

When I asked if you were tired of working, I was talking about the working you see being done every day.

I mean look around you. Look at your loved ones. Look at the strangers on the street. The college students. The moms, the dads of our society just trying to pay the bills, fix ourselves and squeeze whatever joy we can out of life as if we’ve got a dried lemon in our hands that we keep trying to wring out.

I bet you hear the words “busy,” or/and, “tired,” come out their mouths when you ask them how they’re doing.

If they don’t say it, you can see it, or at least detect it. Can you detect it in yourself? It doesn’t belong there if you can.

Once again, our only work is to believe. Believe God can change us, believe God loves us as we are, and believe we don’t even have to perfect our faith. That is Jesus’s job. He is after all called “the pioneer and perfecter of faith” (Hebrews 12:2 NIV, italics added).

The Amplified Bible even goes as far as to describe Jesus’s perfecting of us—calling Him our faith’s finisher. The word says He brings it to “maturity and perfection” (Hebrews 6:1 AMP, italics added).

There is no room for guilt, shame, or condemnation in rest. Let me tell you something about guilt, shame, and condemnation (I’ve just struggled with it this morning, and the Holy Spirit lifted it off of me), it only comes out of an attitude, a heart, of works. It only comes when our own efforts fail, or are frustrated. It all comes out of our works.

God called us to work, not to works.

There is a natural work in the human life. There’s cooking, cleaning, etc., that needs to be done. If you’re on the prayer team at church, or have a God-ordained “job,” then yes, physically you are working. But there should never be a lack of peace inside. When there is, you have started works within.

God’s “jobs” for us are always a delight, and always for our good, and the good of the body. And God is always about balance, not burning yourself out, and not being sluggish or slothful either. Furthermore, I want to point out that “feeling” guilt or shame or condemnation is evil. I’m not calling you evil. I imagine that you’re in Jesus Christ, especially if you’re reading this, thus you are imputed with His righteousness.

I’m calling the act of holding onto (not letting go of) guilt, shame, and condemnation evil. The act is evil—a sin. And the Word of God declares it so. It is either done in an act of unbelief, or pride disguised as holiness. Listen to this,

Let us all come forward and draw near with true (honest and sincere) hearts in unqualified assurance and absolute conviction engendered by faith (by that leaning of the entire human personality on God in absolute trust and confidence in His power, wisdom, and goodness), having our hearts sprinkled and purified from a guilty (evil) conscience and our bodies cleansed with pure water.

— Hebrews 10:22 AMPC

Do you know why guilt is evil? Because it doubts the power of the blood of Jesus to free us from sin. It doubts the overwhelming strength of the mercies and grace of God. It disbelieves His very love.

This is so powerful. This is a reverential truth that will set you free if you believe. The Holy Spirit convicts us, He never condemns us. And God doesn’t condemn man. God condemns man’s sin.

Those who choose to attach themselves to sin, instead of God, through Christ Jesus, have chosen to attach themselves to the thing that God condemns.

God’s heart is good. Jesus has paid the price of sin, and the weight and power of it.

I like what Joyce Meyer says. She says that she believes the power and the weight of sin is guilt, shame, and condemnation.

Hear the words of the Lord through His faithful apostle,

Whereas this One [Christ], after He had offered a single sacrifice for our sins [that shall avail] for all time, sat down at the right hand of God. For by a single offering He has forever completely cleansed and perfected those who are consecrated and made holy.

— Hebrews 10:12 AMPC

Jesus has done it.

I also want to point out to you the word “made.” The Holy Spirit just pointed this out to me (how I love His company and Presence). We can try to make ourselves holy, or we can be made holy.

We are made holy by grace through faith. We are saved by grace through faith. The key word here is grace. Not even faith is the key word. I’ll tell you why: Faith is graced to us.

Isn’t it God who appoints to us the measure of faith (Romans 12:3)? And remember that everything God gives us is a gift (James 1:17 AMPC). Gifts come free.

Isn’t it God who called us through His Holy Spirit to come to Him to receive His grace that we may be saved (see John 6:44)?

If we truly know that we are forgiven completely, accepted fully, and made perfect by Jesus, then we will have peace. And we’ll have something to get excited and stirred up for.

Entering God’s rest is not without the exertion, or perhaps better stated, the exercising of belief. The growing of belief only comes by grace.

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Let us therefore be zealous and exert ourselves and strive diligently to enter that rest [of God, to know and experience it for ourselves], that no one may fall or perish by the same kind of unbelief and disobedience [into which those in the wilderness fell].

— Hebrews 4:11 AMPC

Once again, the Holy Spirit opened my eyes to something here. If we are trying to do God’s job in us or outside of us by working, our faith will wither away and, as this verse implies, it will “perish by…unbelief.”

Ultimately, working to “help God out” is an act of unbelief and it shows a lack of confidence in Him. The more we practice working, the more we feed unbelief. The more we stray from God. The more hopeless we become that He will ever come through for us.

God works through faith. Indeed, if we are working, thus acting out of unbelief and disobedience to His command to believe, then the power and glory of God that we so desperately want to see in our lives will never manifest. Or it is highly unlikely that it will manifest.

I say that because Saul didn’t believe on Christ Jesus, but Jesus still met him on His way to Damascus. After that encounter, I say, He fully believed on Jesus, or strived after it ardently.

Many Christians who strive, seem to strive not to believe. Or at least they feed their unbelief by rehearsing their doubts, either verbally to others or mentally to themselves. Instead of striving to not believe, strive and fight to believe. Fight the good fight of faith (1 Timothy 6:12 NASB). Lastly, I want to quote a wonderful passage from a book that I’ve found very helpful on my faith journey. In The Book of Healing, John Reynolds writes:

They came to Jesus and said, “What must we do that we might work the works of God?” Jesus said to them, “This is the work of God that you might believe on Him Who He has sent.” They didn’t ask Him what to do to get saved, they asked about doing the works of God. Jesus said, “Believe on Me.”

Jesus has done all that is necessary for us to receive from God. “Father, I have finished the works you gavest me to do.” How many of us are trying to “work the works of God?” Jesus overcame every temptation. “He was tempted in every way as we are, yet without sin, let us therefore come boldly before the throne of grace that we [may] receive mercy and find grace to help.” The throne of what? The throne of GRACE. Stop trying to “work the works.” Stop trying to “work” for your healing, your present. Stop confessing the Scriptures with the attitude of trying to “make” something happen. “For it is the Fathers GOOD pleasure” to give it to you! The price has been paid by Jesus. Go and freely receive from Him based upon His grace.

Yes, it is important to know and quote the scriptures but don’t do it from the “I’m going to make this happen” attitude but rather from a heart attitude of “Father, I thank you for what Jesus did for me at Calvary when he bore my sickness and carried my pain. Father, I ask you to heal my body based on your grace and I thank you for it now in Jesus’s name.” Then just give thanks that your prayers have been heard and answered and act your faith.[

Our fight in life is simply this: to believe on the One God has sent. And belief, faith itself, grows best in rest.



[i] John Reynolds, The Book of Healing: How to Receive Healing from the Lord Jesus Christ (John Reynold Ministries, 2012), 44. Scripture references from John 6:28–29; Luke 12:32, version unknown. PDF available at http://www.thehealingministry.com/.

Let My Beauty Heal You

Jesus, You are the Light of my life. Your irresistible and undeniable love pulls on me like a current. Your rafters of love wash over my heart. Pouring over in gentle ripples, Your love cleanses every aching wound in my heart and dismounts every erected wall that keeps You out. I am lost in Your stream, in Your river of love, and tears glide down my cheeks like rain drops from the Heavens. They are my own…and then they become Yours.

Such intimacy I’ve never known. Such tender love I can taste on my tongue. My entire soul absorbs your balmy, fragrant love. Inside, I taste You everywhere. You are my only strength.

I look up at the stars—they look like millions of glitter flakes tossed in the sky. Entranced, I gaze up at them from the bioluminescent river of Your love that glows blue, and I melt in Your love. You’ve shown me where I am. I am under the stars of Your beauty in a radiant moving pool of healing.

Your sky is breathtaking, Lord.Dust and translucent gas from the cosmos create a light work of brilliant beauty. Your stream is calm, yet these waters are living. They float me along and there are flecks of silver, gold, blue and lavender gems in them—moving, living light. I am cradled by living light in living water. Trees, shrubs, and blossoming vegetation bend over me in the river.

Everything is so calm here and You say, “Let My beauty heal you. Let the facet of My love that you are seeing ravish your heart. Be still, and let Me love you. I want to love you to tears.I want your heart to cry those tears you so need to get out…not in light of your pain but in light of My love that is so much stronger than your pain, and overcomes and heals your pain.”

My eyes well at Your words and the healing beauty of what my eyes are beholding. Aromatic wafts of the spices of Your love lift from the pool that laps at my body and soul. You ravish me with the way You love me. You love me so tenderly, so slowly, so completely. Your love is more patient with healing my inflicted wounds than my own heart is.


~This sample poem was taken from my recently published book Visions of Celestial Love. You can purchase a copy by clicking here. 

Imagery

There are tabernacles and pillars. Ivory polished white with no walls, open to the air where water from Heaven flows through like crystal glass. These waters are air and water all in one. They reflect light like diamonds. They radiate crystal. Transcendent beauty.

Daddy, You transform me with Your beauty. Thank You for sharing the goodness of Your heart with me.

I see these pillars from ballroom floors, all white like pearls of melting snow in the sun. These tabernacles stand atop one large waterfall with many rifts. The air is spicy with the fragrance of something heavenly, like all my favorite aromas mixed in at once, yet distinct. It tickles my nose and awakens my senses softly, like the taste of whipped cream lingering after a cool glass of water.

There is such peace here, such celestial bliss, such tender tickling, such laughter and mirth of soul. These waters glide like skies of opal blue, as they touch the glassy floors they turn into air but still have the fluid body of water. Then as they leave the ballroom they become water again before pouring down the waterfall caressing rock and air. Cascading down and then crashing, the vapor of clouds arises forming poufy mountains in the skies.

Here You have taken me within my soul to show me Your great goodness and beauty. Here You have shown me…to bless me with sweet love.

~This sample poem was taken from my book Visions of Celestial Love.

“Visions of Celestial Love is a book of inspiring quotes and beautiful prose about God’s unconditional love for mankind. The insights of this book help us to understand that it was the Father’s great love for us that made a way for us to have life together with His Son, Jesus Christ. Through it we get a glimpse into the true meaning of Christ’s sacrifice of love expressed through His death, burial and resurrection as God’s magnificent gift of grace to us. His blood made it possible for all those who put their faith in Him to have fellowship with His Father again. 

I am confident that at the completion of this book, you will also seek after God with your whole heart and want to be in His presence forever.” —Alice Paige, Ministry Volunteer, True-Heart friend of author

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Uniquely You

Dearest Reader and Friend,

I want to speak to you personally about being uniquely you; about loving and savoring yourself. That may sound conceited to some ears, but there’s nothing wrong with loving and enjoying yourself.

In fact, it is holy. Jesus loves and savors you. You are pleasing to Him. You are so very precious in His sight…inside and outside. He loves you. He created you. He fashioned and formed you uniquely in your mother’s womb, and He carefully and skillfully (probably with a huge smile on His face and excitement in His heart) wove a life for you full of grace and hope using the golden thread of Heaven, and the very pleasure of His heart.

Jeremiah 29:11 NIV says: “For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.”

You are so priceless and precious to Him. There are things—gifts and talents that He’s put in you that nobody else has. Yes, if you’re a painter you will meet other painters, but the version of the talent of painting that you have is unique to you, and it is God-breathed.

I’ve had the bittersweet pleasure of meeting a lot of people in life who are insecure in some way, shape, or form. There’s an “epidemic of insecurity in our society” as Joyce Meyer likes to say. It’s insecurity with a root of fear that sprouts all kinds of ugly branches, like comparison, which leads to jealousy and hatred. This fear comes from not knowing yourself in Abba Father. It comes from a lack of receiving His healing love, for perfect love casts out all fear.

We need to understand and value ourselves, to take the time to connect with our souls and truly see with all our heart the beauty of our spirit and outward design.

There’s a beauty, a radiance within you that is entirely unique to you. This radiance, beauty, and strength is the way God portrays Himself through your soul. You are a one-time masterpiece, and your reaction to His love cannot be copied by anyone else. You are unique, and He wants to love you uniquely. He wants to hold you uniquely. He wants to encourage you uniquely. He wants to have a relationship with you uniquely.

In the same way that no two fingerprints are the same, nobody is like you in all the earth. Listen to the wise words of John Mason in his book title: You Were Born an Original, Don’t Die a Copy. You are the “lily among thorns,” and the “apple tree among the trees of the wood.” God sees you as the “chief among ten thousand!” Indeed, in His eyes you are entirely perfect for Him.

May you see yourself through His washing, through His cleansing eyes of love, through His ecstatic delight. He calls you mighty, He calls you strong, He calls you tender, He calls you lovely. You are called loved. Please friend, whatever you do, don’t wrongfully compare yourself with others, or even with yourself, for the Bible calls this foolish.

Go to Abba, and ask Him what He thinks of you, and then open the Word and let Him minister to your deepest needs.

~This sample devotional was taken from my book Visions of Celestial Love. You can purchase a physical or ebook copy by clicking here.

Sweep Over Me

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Here You find me again.

Oh, when did I become so hardened from You?

So swept away in the insecurities of life?

So surrounded by the doubts of tomorrow that arise from my lack of faith?

So numbed by the mirror?

Sweet Jesus, You see my heart and You claim it as your own; yet You never force me to rest in Your arms, or hear You sing to my heart a song that brightens my face and lightens my soul like a feather in the gentle strength of Your summer wind.

Here You are.

I feel You tell me,

“It’s okay to cry. Let go of your pride, for your humble tears are beautiful. Now then, I can wash your garments clean.”

I’ll never understand how You can delight in me.

Yet may Your obvious love for me melt away the enemies and the world’s ice of lies that grip my parched heart.

Oh God, I desire to be raised by You!

See, I want to be swept away in the torrent breeze of Your Holy Spirit to a righteous land where I can live with You.

Please visit me again like You used to, for I am shaken with fear in this body.

Oh, please take control of me and sweep over me like a wave of warm water spiced with lavender oil that I might be overwhelmed by the aroma of Your holy love for me.

I desire to be wrapped in Your arms and soaked in Your soul.

May the current of Your love loosen and, alas, open my grip on my dreams and desires until I am so close to You that the very breath I breathe has been mixed with Your exhales.

Bind me to Yourself in holy matrimony and claim all of my heart, for it is Yours alone to own now and forevermore.


~This sample poem was taken from my book Visions of Celestial Love:

“Come, all you are thirsty, come to the waters; and you who have no money, come buy and eat! Come, buy wine and milk without money and without cost. Why spend money on what is not bread, and your labor on what does not satisfy? Listen, listen to me and eat what is good, and you will delight in the richest of fare.” – Isaiah 55:1-2 NIV

Are you ready to taste of the sweet delicacies of God in a deeply reviving and personal way? For those who want to drink, for those who want to eat and be refreshed and renewed, Visions of Celestial Love is a feast between you and the King of Heaven, who loves you more than anyone else. He invites you to dine on wholesome, good, savory food and delicious, zesty, fruitful drink. He awaits you with a sparkle in His eye. He is ready for your company. He delights to have you as a guest.

“Eat, friends, and drink; drink your fill of love.” – Song of Songs 5:1 NIV

“Ashley presents us with a true cornucopia of modern psalms, personal testimonies, and short stories. She has set out to reveal and unravel some of the most complex heart issues mankind faces in our quest of understanding what true intimacy with God really looks like. Prepare to have your soul massaged and worked on as you read Visions of Celestial Love.” — Jeremy Minard, Servant King Apparel

Let My Soul Expand in Worship

Let my soul expand in worship to the One who is more beautiful than a thousand waterfalls, each flowing with liquid clearer than crystal and more bright than opal blue.

They form mountains in the clouds and their rivers of spirit-water create the vastness of the skies.

Let the aromatic rains of worship fall and cover the earth! Let my heart drink in His lovely image.

He is more powerful than the gravitational pull of a thousand planets.

He is more majestic than the mightiest mountain, more breathtaking than all of the canopies of trees in the amazon forest.

He is grander than the vastness of outer space.

Nothing can be compared to His beauty.

Infinity cannot describe His wonder.

To find Him is to find life.

To seek Him is the highest joy.

To love Him is to have tasted His love.

To be filled with His love is to be in a union higher than Heaven.

He created you to be filled with His goodness, with His life.

This is who you are; this is who He made you to be.

There is no fight for it, no struggle; He longs to fill empty places; it is His duty, His high delight, His supreme pleasure…to heal…to fill…to love.

And His love is like a magnet that cannot be pulled away from you, for you were created for it and you cannot uncreate yourself.

His love created you, therefore you were designed to be one with His love.

~Let My Soul Expand in Worship is a small poetic sample from my book Visions of Celestial Love. To purchase a physical or ebook copy of Visions of Celestial Love, click here.


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